Hello World: Hello World: Battlefield of Imperfection - Part 3

Battlefield of Imperfection - Part 3 (Final)

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Hello everyone. It has been quite a while, hasn't it? Currently I'm quite busy with my work.

3. Leg

• Weak Point: My injured left leg.
  

• Strong Point: Brain and high self esteem.
  

• Mission: To overcome insecurity.
  

• Effectiveness: 99%

My leg. This is one difficult subject to talk about. I think there was a time when I could not accept the fact that I have an injured leg.

Back then I could not help to stare sadly at my own leg for several long minutes. Self pity. "Why me?"

I would then try to stretch it as hard as possible. Hoping a miracle to happen. Please leg, stop bending and straight yourself up. I would like to have a normal looking leg.

Once I overheard my aunt talking to my mother about me. My aunt hasn't seen me for a long time so she was shocked to see my new appearance. "He is so good looking now. A lot of girls would flock him around."

Then she continued to talk but in a lower sympathetic tone. "But how about his leg ? Is there any way to treat it?"

There was a short pause from my mother. "No, but it's okay. At least he has slimmed down."

Bzzt. Not an accurate answer. I've never talked to my doctor regarding to my leg hence to say there is zero possibility to treat it is completely false. We don't know yet. But yes, my doctor did advice me once to consume a lot of milk to strengthen my bones.

Let's rewind my history a bit.

To refresh everyone's mind. I fell down stairs when I was a kid. Had a lot of blood on my left leg. It didn't really hurt though. But my mistake was I didn't tell my parents about it. Hence there was no medical treatment for my leg. Changes started to appear few years later.

When I Was in High School - 1997

I received quite a lot of flak from my own best friends.

Once, we were heading home from school. To make the story short, I realized two of my three best friends were mimicking the way I walk from behind. Then they burst out laughing. I was really embarrassed but I didn't say anything.

Two Years Ago - 2006

It happened in one evening at the jogging park. I was brisk walking peacefully when I stumbled upon a group of troubled young teenage girls. They were heading the opposite way. One girl pointed her index finger at my leg. The others laughed.

At first I ignored them. But they continued to laugh. I was getting really annoyed by them, which in result I did something that I did not expect to do.

I did something foolish. I raised my left hand and gave them a finger. I've never gave anyone a finger before in my entire life.

I was upset. Not at those girls but at myself. I could just give myself a slap for being that stupid. Really. Did it make me feel better by giving them a finger? Nope. In fact those girls continued to laugh. I did something that was rather pointless.

Giving people a finger or cussing people will not going to solve your problem and make you feel better.

Solution

There is no easy solution to solve this matter. It's all up to me whether to accept it and continue to live my life normally or to decline reality and frown myself to death.

Really, it's not the end of the world. People will continue to stare at my leg whether I like it or not but let them be. Indeed it hurts once in a while but I have better things to do than to sulk myself 24 hours nonstop.

Not to forget, I plan to seek treatment for my leg as soon as possible as well. Hopefully there is a way to recover it. Somehow and someway.

Whether it can be fixed or not, it's not going to stop me from dancing. It's not going to stop me from doing brisk walk. It's not going to stop me from living my life.

Conclusion

"The worst loneliness is to not be comfortable with yourself."

Mark Twain

If you feel imperfect and weak, chin up. Don't let your guard down. Don't let fear and insecurity haunt your life. Balance your weak points with your strong points. Life is too short to feel sorry for yourself 24/7.

Don't forget, talk to someone if you need to. In fact I'm here as a friend always.

Last but not least, enjoy life. Sniff a Daisy. Play with a stray dog or cat. Spoil yourself with a bit of chocolate bar. Cry a little to release your stress. Laugh a lot to comfort your life.

Really, it's not the end of the world

Truthfully,

JJ

Random: I cannot stand in front of a smoker. Face to face. The smoke will give me a big headache later.
Listening to: Toto - Africa
Current Weight: 86 kg (189.2 lbs)